I Am....

And there I was watching the notorious film and then it struck me, again, what difference real friends make. Just think about someone giving up his life to go to jail so that you can go out there, discover who you are and soar? Crazy? Maybe, but that is such that I crave for.

I don’t know if there are many people like me who just want to live their lives believing that true love can happen to them. I really don’t know what has got into me that most of what I think about is how to be a good friend and how to have friends that love and appreciate me as much as I do them. It’s not like I can’t be all by myself, no sir, but I find myself thinking more about being with someone who shares my passion and convictions about what we are here for, what life is all about, what we can do for each other and how we can nourish and bring out the best in each other.

I never would have though that I would ever be like this; clingy of sorts. Maybe I am not clingy. Maybe it is a phase in my life that I really need to have someone to share my deep feelings with. But what if I chose to spend it with you...Would that be ok? Would I remain your friend even when I am not there or would you always seek for a way for me not to be around you?

It’s so hard sometimes just thinking what you think of me. And then I am wondering if ever I will wake up from this dream and find out that all I have thought about is just a fairy tale. Like one of many we read about that are a just that... stories!

I really want to just be myself. A better version of what I am now. Someone who knows to say the right words, who knows how to love right, who is always there for friends, who never ever forgets why he is here and what he is meant to do. May be my ideals are way to preposterous, may be I only see what I choose to see... may be? But why can’t my ideals be the real thing? Who says that I can’t have all that I dream of? Who says that I can’t choose my friends, and be with them who I am when I am all by myself?

I am who I am.

I am Oluwaseun Akinola Dawodu.